Interestingly, it was another reflection in my window that revealed what a terrible failure I have been at keeping these promises to myself.
It is so discouraging to see how little self-control I have. I feel like I succumb to any or all justifications for indulging: stress, comfort, entertainment, joy, celebration, proximity, you name it and I’ll eat to that! And now it is the holidays – potentially the hardest of all seasons to weather when you struggle with eating! Sugar cookies, anyone? An edible treat made solely of sugar, flour, and butter can be delicious, but not nutritious. As it turns out, you can lead this horse to water but she might only drink it after eating an appetizer or two.
My son asked me the other night, “how much weight have you lost?” He notices my stones (which are now reunited in the original jar – looking rather forlorn, I must say). In a way, I appreciate the accountability he offers me; however, no one really likes that kind of reality check any more than a post-Christmas Visa bill, do they? Sadly, I had to tell him that the weight I lost has been found again. Somehow it has returned to its owner. And although there may be many reasons (or justifications), there are no excuses.
This is discouraging to say the least; actually, it’s embarrassing.
I need to go back and
read follow my own advice. I don’t really need a New Year’s Resolution (I’ve got my fair share of old ones); I need a new year of resolve.
Anybody with me?